The first time i tried to make a boy love me....
The first time I tried to make a boy love me, I failed dismally. My boyish structure and introverted nature made sure I did not stand a chance next to the curvaceous and confident girls in my grade, and, yes, I compared. Every single day I compared myself to every other girl around me. “ Why was I not as interesting as they were? ”, I wondered to myself. What was it about me that made nobody interested in me romantically? The only thing I could think of was that I was not beautiful enough. Yes. That had to be it. So, I was not surprised when, the second time I tried to make a boy love me again, I failed. I sort of expected it. I did it some more after that and eventually, it became a game I played with myself. How many times could I throw myself against the rocks and still come out standing? The answer is: as many times as I felt the need to mask my feelings of abandonment with something less confounding. That is what love did for me back then, or wh...